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muerta

cansada

exhausta

ansiosa

y con hambre

volare...

Que raras las circunstancias

y el tiempo

pero es lo que queria verdad?

pero a la vez no

entonces mi mente juega conmigo

y relaciona sensaciones pasadas con eventos del presente

que complejo puede ser 

y a la vez que simple

Necesito el yo

solo quiero

unos marlboro y poder despejar mi mente

And Jesus I'm ready to come home

Jesus, I'm ready to come home(home) 

home (home)

I'm ready to come (home)

Hey Unfaithful

Hey Ungraceful

Hey Unloving

I will love you

Hey Unloving (Hey Unloving)

I will love you

strange

momento :

un suceso

un evento

tout a changé soudainement

Todos deberian leer esto, tu tambien

Discurso que dio Randy Pausch (click)

I said, I want to make stuff like this. 

And so I bided my time and then I graduated with my Ph.D.from Carnegie Mellon, thinking that meant me infinitely qualified to do anything. 

And I dashed off my letters of applications to Walt Disney Imagineering, and they sent me some of the damned nicest go-to-hell letters I have ever gotten. [laughter]

 I mean it was just, we have carefully reviewed your application and presently we do not have any positions available which require your particular qualifications.

 Now think about the fact that you’re getting this from a place that’s famous for guys who sweep the street. [laughter] So that was a bit of a setback. 

But remember, the brick walls are there for a reason. 

The brick walls are not there to keep us out. 

The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people

Experience is what you get when you didn’t get what you wanted

dum

ahora parece q regreso a lima este marte y me quedo

hasta el domingo

necesito cuadrar mis cosas de la univ

motivo de regreso:  parece que esta semana mi abue ya no da mas x_x

en fin

muchas cosa

: I feel it all

cosas en casa 

problemas en casa

y todo cuando estoy lejos

que pena no poder ayudar...

The truth lies

The truth lied

And lies divide

Lies divide

HOME

a veces siento que no puedo

juro que no puedo

me ganan los recuerdos

las fotos

las risas

a veces juro que no puedo

necesito verlos 

necesito reirme 

necesito sentirme en casa

ja

y el 26 

son 4

osea

1 m

wow, que risa

Lucha

A veces cuando alguien necesita de un amigo/a siempre hay alguien dispuesto a escuchar

Es un poco dificil saber que palabras son necesarias y cuales no

tratamos de ser acertivos pero al mismo tiempo esta el miedo de no saber que decir

ya sea porque no has pasado por esa experiencia y no puedes ponerte en la situacion de la persona

Creo que a veces decimos lo que pensamos viendo las cosas de un 3er punto de vista y tratando de aconsejar lo mejor que podemos

Viendo tele, leyendo cosas

observando como es que otra gente puede razonar de manera distinta a la mia , en cuestion de aconsejar

y hoy pense que tal vez todo este tiempo di los consejos equivocados? 

Tal ves nunca me di cuenta de algo importante.

 Que tal si en serio uno necesita luchar por cosas que te duelen?

Luchar por algo que te haria completamente feliz pero te duele.

Te duele como si te clavaran mil agujas en el corazon,

como si mil pedacitos de vidrio explotasen dentro tuyo

pero es algo que te hace feliz

algo sincero que en realidad crees que vale la pena lucharlo 

eso me hizo pensar mucho hoy

y tu problablemente leeras esto 

pero en serio me hiciste pensar 

y yo tq :]

psicologia inversa

this user is not online 

do you wish to send an email?

No! fucking msn 

I just want to 

signo con diagonal y rojo 

done.

1:23

Fatima que problablemente leeras esto

click aqui

y dime si o no que

ñaca ñaca 

*baba*

jaja <3

B o A_Duvet

And you don't seem to understand

A shame you seemed an honest man 

And all the fears you hold so dear

Will turn to whisper in your ear

And you know what they say might hurt you

And you know that it means so much

And you don't even feel a thing

I am falling 

I am fading

I have lost it all

And you don't seem the lying kind 

A shame that I can read your mind

And all the things that I read there

Candle lit smile that we both share

And you know I don't mean to hurt you

But you know that it means so much

And you don't even feel a thing

I am falling 

I am fading

I am drowning, help me to breathe

I am hurting

I have lost it all 

I am losing, help me to breathe

;;Busy

Los dias ocupados son los mejores dias

Despiertas, si hay tiempo terminas esa tarea que llevaste horas haciendola,

te das una ducha, te cambias, si quieres te maquillas, te peinas,

escoges que casaca usar, como estara el clima ?

Tal vez solo necesitas una chalina por hoy, y un chaleco seria la mejor opcion

Sacas la llave, caminas 

Esperas que el semaforo cambie de luz, cruzas la calle 

coges el bus y caminas un poco mas

llegas, saludas a las personas que conoces

hablas, trabajas, te concentras en un mundo donde lo uncio que importa

es tu rendimiento y tu progeso en el area

asi pasa 1, 2 , 3 o 10 horas. 

Sentada, parada , conversando, callada

Terminas, comes en grupo o sola

Dices adios y te detienes en aquel lugar

20 minutos de cardio

10 minutos de bicicleta 

y 10 de una maquina rara que no conoces el nombre

Regresas, das un giro  a la llave

y te das una ducha

abres el correo, una dos o tres paginas

y ahora escribes.

A veces los dias ocupados son los mejores, no te dan tiempo a pensar en cosas extras

que perfecto dia.

Domingo:::::::

2:10 am 

Sigo haciendomi publicidad

ya mas tranquila

creo.

De nuevo la mordida

y mi mandibula me duele

la ansiedad me esta matando

que sera de mi vida cuando sea mayor

And lately
I feel like I’m goin’ crazy

C a sa , En f e r medad

There are two tasks involved in starting at university :

- leaving familiar things, people and places,

- adapting to new things, people and places.

What might help?

- Talk to someone. If you haven't yet made friends here, then try a tutor, supervisor, chaplain, nurse or counsellor.

- Keep in good contact with the people you have left behind; arrange a time to go back to see them, perhaps after a few weeks. But also give yourself time within the university to begin to get involved here. Don't let looking back actually hinder moving forward.

- Encourage friends and family to come and see you in your new setting.

- Remember that many other people will be sharing similar feelings, although you may assume that they are doing fine! (You can't read their minds - just as they can't read yours!)

- You are allowed to feel sad and homesick! You are also allowed to enjoy yourself - it isn't being disloyal to those you miss!

- Be realistic about what to expect from student life and from yourself. Establish a balance between work and leisure

- If work is proving too difficult, can you improve your study skills or your organisation of time and work so that you gain satisfaction from what you do

- Remember to get enough food and sleep! These affect us emotionally as well as physically.

- Make contacts and friends through shared activities such as sport or other interests. There are so many clubs and societies within the university and city, that you are very likely to find something that suits your particular interests. At the start of the academic year many new people will be joining - you are unlikely to be the only new person.

- Give yourself time to adjust: you don't have to get everything right straight away. Nor do you have to rush into making major decisions about staying or leaving.

- Check out that you do really want to be at this university, in this college, studying this subject, at this time. Most people come through times of homesickness and go on to do well and enjoy their time at university. But for some it can be right to leave and take another direction. Those who do leave mostly find another course or university with which they are happy, perhaps after taking a year out. But if you are thinking along these lines, you need to take expert advice about the academic, career and financial implications. Speak to your tutor, the University Career Service and your LEA.

bonjour

La ansiedad regresa poco a poco

y una vez mas, no me puedo concentrar....

o no mas ti c o

Hoy es el cumple de come caca

y espero que por hoy logre pasarla bien de verdad

te quieroo 

:]

hola

hoy corri 

corri hasta cansarme

corri escapando de lo que esta atras

y que bien se siente

mañana gym de nuevo :)

\\ Mayer

Odio cuando no puedo dormir

por mas que mis ojos se cierran y me siento como un zombie

el corazon me late rapido

quisiera poder sacar todo con una esponjita de desmaquillante

Verdes>

Viendo tele 

1 hora  no es suficiente para correr al infinito

por eso sera mañana 

que mis pies avanzaran uno frente al otro

y yo te perseguire final

como si todo se detuviese 

asi voy a correr tras mis recuerdos

y los alcanzare 

yo se que

mañana sera otro dia 

y todo sera azul como verde

Gym

Mañana

sera mañana 

yo lo se

;les yeux

hoy siento que morire dentro de poquito

muero de sueño

ไม่ให้เธอไป

jaak naa-tee tee ter bork laa jaak chun bai

prow a-rai het dai mai kao jai waa tam mai ja maa ting gun

yaak ja deung rung ter got ter hai nern naan

peua hai kwarm song jam kong wun waan tam hai rao dai glub maa ruk gun 

mai hai ter bai dtong sia a-rai kae nai yung ngai tao-rai

sia ter bai mai roo ja ton aang waang dai naan tao rai

mai hai ter bai bork chun suk kam kae nai tee ter dtong gaan

chun ja tam peua kor hai ter blian jai

kae piang ter mai bai ruk krai

mai wung a-rai hai jai tung jai kong ter mee chun gor roo dee wun nee sai gern bai

jaak naa-tee tee ter bork laa jaak chun bai

prow a-rai het dai mai kao jai waa tam mai ja maa ting gun

yaak ja deung rung ter got ter hai nern naan

peua hai kwarm song jam kong wun waan tam hai rao dai glub maa ruk gun 

mai hai ter bai dtong sia a-rai kae nai yung ngai tao-rai

sia ter bai mai roo ja ton aang waang dai naan tao rai

mai hai ter bai bork chun suk kam kae nai tee ter dtong gaan

chun ja tam peua kor hai ter blian jai

kae piang ter mai bai ruk krai

(interlude)

mai hai ter bai dtong sia a-rai kae nai yung ngai tao-rai

sia ter bai mai roo ja ton aang waang dai naan tao ra

mai hai ter bai bork chun suk kam kae nai tee ter dtong gaan

chun ja tam peua kor hai ter blian jai

kae piang ter mai bai ruk krai

mai wung a-rai hai jai tung jai kong ter mee chun gor roo dee wun nee sai gern bai

ไม่ให้เธอไป

tresyocho 3&8

y sigo despierta escribiendo

aqui y alla

blogeo y pienso 

sobre.....

pepto bismol jajaja

que cagada la univ. me quema el "cerebro" si es que queda algo

;;;Escucho

You are everything I wanted

The scars of all I’ll ever know

If I told you you were right

Would you take my hand tonight?

If I told you the reasons why

Would you leave your life and ride?

And ride…

You saw all my pieces broken

This darkness that I could never show

If I told you you were right

Would you take my hand tonight?

If I told you the reasons why

Would you leave your life and ride?

And ride…

cary brother / ride

buena cancion

s a e d i

sin poder escribir.... me vuelvo loca

dios dame ideas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pd: ciclo termina ya!

musica'

No saben como odio no poder concentrarme en algo

es increible como puedo sentir todo a un extremo

el no poder controlar mis emociones me detiene mucho en mis acciones

paro caminando con el ipod al oido y diciendo "jennifer controla tus emociones"

pero no puedo 

no puedo!

y me llega y me pone frustrada porque odio sentir todo tanto

y tener ese nudo y ese escalofrio en el cuerpo

y las ganas de llorar 

y la musica no ayuda

NO AYUDA

y tengo que hacer tarea y creen que puedo??????????

NO

no puedo porque mi mente para en otro lado

y paro pensando mil cosas

preocupada

tensa

quiero llorar y explotar y lo peor es que solo creo que existen dos razones

y el resto no las se 

o tal ves me estoy volviendo loca

necesito explotar

necesito

volar

VOLAR

y poder concentrarme en cosas que deberia concentrarme

porque soy tan inutil de no poder controlar lo que siento???

deberia poder ponerle un stop a la mala cara

a el nudo en mi garganta

deberia poder

/// Cancion feliz

Algunos ojos dicen que cuando estan felices reflejan el corazon. 

y hoy que aprendi a mirarte ya se sin preguntarte 

que me van a dar tu amor

Algunos sentimientos se narran en los cuentos 

y otros se escriben de a dos

el que yo quiero darte prefiere abrazarte 

que vivir ese cuento sin vos.

Y asi te digo

Que voy acompañarte 

que me quedo con vos 

que no voy a olvidarte 

Debo confesarte. 

que es tuyo mi amor.

Algunos ojos dicen que cuando estan felices,

Mmm... reflejan el corazon...

Y hoy que aprendi a mirarte ya se sin preguntarte 

que me van a dar tu amor.

Y asi te digo

Que voy acompañarte 

que me quedo con vos 

que no voy a olvidarte

debo confesarte.

Que es tuyo mi amor 

Que voy acompañarte (Agus: que voy acompañarte) 

que me quedo con vos (Agus: siempre con vos) 

que no voy a olvidarte (Agus: uhuhuhuh) 

debo confesarte 

Que es tuyo mi amor

†

My hands are searching for you

My arms are outstretched towards you

I feel you on my fingertips

My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being

Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me

And you whisper you love me

And I begin to fade

Into our secret place

The music makes me sway

The angels singing say we are alone with you

I am alone and they are too with you

And so I cry

The light is white

And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand

I give it to you

Now you own me

All I am

You said you would never leave me

I believe you

I believe

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healed

†

<3

Llamada;;;;;;

A veces hace falta una llamada cercana

para ponerte en pie

y seguir adelante

gracias 

?Buzon

Cada dia la espera se vuelve una adiccion

abriendo el buzon,

 abriendo el corazon

para tener el suspiro en mano y un nudo en la garganta.

El tiempo pasa sin importarle mis mordidas de uñas 

o las motas de pelo en el lavabo 

pero es mi desesperacion por una palabra o una alerta 

Y la peor parte de todas es mi perseverancia,

mi esperanza perpetua

por conseguir una respuesta, 

la que me urge encontrar

Asi me paso abriendo caminos al mar

dejando huellas pasadas en el camino del presente

manteniendo la ilusion de que todo sera como lo proyecte en mi mente. 

Shut the fuck up

Alala/

Las 3:45  y acomodo mi almohada 

todo desvanece lentamente

''Everything I'm not

Cause your so perfect

And no one measures up

Yeah all by yourself

You're all messed up

ja

nada

La suerte de perderte en frascos multicolor

mientras la ayuda viene en pequeñas cantidades

y tu respiro a mi costado no para de empañar tu mirada

con la esperanza de creer en tu palabra

y de ver la cruda verdad mientras volteabas la cara

la maldita esperanza de hablar sin dudar 

que nunca existio aquella promesa

lullabies;;

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind

Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies

The sweetest sadness in your eyes

Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

: 3:30

Me llega un poco al p*ncho 

la situacion

por la puta madre

cojones carajo

;; PaTd

Back to the streets where we began

Feeling as good as lovers can, you know

Yeah we're feeling so good

Pickin up things we shouldn't read

Looks like the end of history as we know

It's just the end of the world

Back to the street where we began

Feeling as good as love, you could, you can

Into a place, where thoughts can bloom

Into a room where it's nine in the afternoon

And we know that it could be...

And we know that it should

And you know that you feel it too

'Cause it's nine in the afternoon

And your eyes are the size of the moon

You could 'cause you can so you do

We're feeling so good

just the way that we do

When it's nine in the afternoon

Your eyes are the size of the moon

You could 'cause you can so you do

We're feeling so good

Back to the street

Down to our feet

Losing the feeling of feeling unique

Do ya know what I mean?

Back to the place

Where we used to say

Man it feels good to feel this way

Now I know what I mean

Back to the street, back to the place,

Back to the room where it all began

Back to the room where it all began

Cause it's nine in the afternoon

Your eyes are the size of the moon

You could 'cause you can so you do

We're feeling so good

Just the way that we do

When it's nine in the afternoon

Your eyes are the size of the moon

You could 'cause you can so you do

We're feeling so good

Just the way that we do

When it's nine in the afternoon

Your eyes are the size of the moon

You could 'cause you can so you do

We're feeling so good

Just the way that we do

When it's nine in the afternoon

Learning;

She reads a book from across the street,

Waiting for someone that she'll never meet.

Talk over coffee for an hour or two,

She wonders why I'm always in a good mood.

Killin' time before she struts her stuff,

She needs support and I've become the crutch.

She'll never know how much she means to me.

I'd play the game but I'm the referee.

Surrender every word, every thought every sound.

Surrender every touch, every smile, every frown.

Surrender all the pain we've endured until now.

Surrender all the hope that I lost you have found.

Surrender yourself to me.

::Esencia

Son días de espera

llenos de soledad

Son versos 

que van al son de tu ida

que bailan al son de tu llegada

Déjame triste versos,

triste partida

Déjame triste el todo

Vie;

“When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. 

Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. 

You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you 

don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. 

And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?”

Sex and the city